— This morning I turned the television on while folding clothes.  I left it on the station that it was on.  I did not pay attention to it at first.  Then, I looked up to see two preachers speaking.  I did not think that was the station it was on when I turned it off last night.  

I heard them speaking on the subject of the “Circle of Life”.  It struck me funny because I have been struggling with putting some final touches on a eulogy I am giving for a friend.  The memorial service is in the morning.  I thought after hearing what the preachers said, this circle of life is what I need to base my eulogy on.

The circle of life is really meant for animals, in my way of thinking.  It really means that an animal can transform in many stages of his life.  They are born, live life, have babies, die, get eaten by another animal and have the rest of their decomposed body used as fertilizer.  

The circle of life is actually letting someone go to allow someone to take their place.  Death is like passing the torch to the next generation.  Death may not be the end, but the seed of some other life.  This is so true.  We have children and they continue to fertilize the earth.  They continue where we left off.

I believe in angels.  I think that I have an angel that watches over me.  Where that angel comes from is a mystery.  Angels are transparent.  I am only giving my description of an angel.  No, I do not see things.  I just feel things.  I feel that I get extra help from someone.  I still make a lot of mistakes.  Sometimes, when I slow down enough to think about things before acting on them, that is when I get help.  After this, I have a definite feeling of accomplishment.  

I listened to the discussion from the preachers and got really involved in the circle of life.  It is like we never die, but continue on in another form.  This sounds really spooky.  I dream so many dreams of my mother, father and uncles, who have been dead for a while now.  I see them like they were standing in front of me.  I wonder sometimes if they appear in death, as they do in my dreams.  

I also heard that humans do not die because matter never dies.  They are just passed on to another place.  I fear this may be a correct meaning of the circle of life.  We do everything we possibly can not to die.  This is because we fear the unknown.  If the hereafter is as beautiful as we feel and think it is, why should be fear it.  Well, I know you have to believe in order to see it as God would have us see it.  There will be those of us that will never see the beauty that God has laid out for us, because they do not believe.

I have the hardest time of letting people go to rest, after death.  Time does help.  You do not forget how someone made a difference in your life.  We do not ever want people that mean something special to us to leave us.  Knowing that they are leaving to make room in our lives for someone new to replace them, sometimes don’t help.  But this circle of life thing is a fact.  We die and others are born.  It is like we are running the marathon and pass the torch on.  

I am appreciative that I got information on the circle of life from the preachers on television.  I was shocked that they would elaborate on this.  I will base my eulogy on this.  This is an interesting topic with many different outlooks.  Hopefully this will be of interest to my audience at the service.  

Fanny Morgan of Port Neches is once retired and now is a church secretary. Contact her at fan1007@aol.com.